Feeling somnicidal

This morning I woke up…and I know I should be thankful for that, but I wasn’t. I wanted to return to sleep. That really depressing feeling of not simply wanting to sleep more, but wanting to fall back to sleep and not come back. Not suicidal, but rather somnicidal. Is wishing to die in your sleep a bad thing? Isn’t that what most people wish for – to die in their sleep. However, I guess in most cases, it is prefaced by a conditional – ‘if I am to die, I want to die in my sleep.’ That’s not quite the same as ‘I want to die in my sleep.'